A year ago I would’ve never pictured my life the way it is now… What a rollercoaster it was. Let me give you a little update:
Around November 2018 something in my private life happend and this was the start of a whole new chapter. I lost some things, but more importantly: I gained a lot. My business grew more than I could ever expect, I got my own appartement (!!) and mostly: I grew so much as a person. As you may know I’ve struggled with perfectionism and anxiety for quite some time. And for the first time in YEARS I feel so calm, peaceful and free. As long as I can remember I was ”scared” for a lot of little things, like swimming in the ocean. I know it’s weird, but I just didn’t liked swimming with fish next to me haha. And this summer I didn’t even thought about it. It didn’t bothered me at all. And I noticed it in every aspect of my life.
This year I learned a lot about letting go and just letting things be. And it definitely changed my view on everything! I always wanted to be in control. As much as I loved the unknown, I always wanted to be in charge. This was kind of a tricky combination. For example: I loved my freedom as an entrepreneur but I also got a lot of anxiety of the financial instability. Now I know that everything will work out, always. I don’t have to know how things go, why things go the way they go.. All I know is that everything will be fine, whatever the case is.
I know that a lot of people have always seen me as a very optimistic and positive person. And as much as I love to spread that message, I can tell you (and the people who know me well can also tell you this) that that is not always the case. I’ve always believed in other people and their potential, but I never really saw my own potential. And for the first time in forever I can see it. I’m not perfect and I will never be. And the best part is: I don’t even want to be perfect. But I know in my heart that I always try to do the right thing for me and the people around me. And that’s all that really matters. And for the first time I also feel a little proud of myself and everything I achieved on my own.
2019 has been the best year so far. Everything I’ve always dreamed of came true or worked out even better. And I know everything comes in waves.. But I feel strong now. I can handle everything that cross my path. And I know that sunrise always comes back after sunset.
Lastly I want to say that mindset changes everything. The way you look at yourself, situations and other people really changes everything. Educate yourself about mindset and mindfulness: read books, watch documentaries, listen to podcasts. Surround yourself with positive, helpful, likeminded and uplifting people. It helped me a lot and I know it can and it will help you as well. You are capable of everything and you can literally have anything you want as long as you have the right mindset.
PS. I’m also happy to announce that I will update my blog more regularly again from now on. Have a nice day! X